Happy birthday to you, love,
No cake or a festive celebration,
Just the thoughts of you and my dull pain,
So much sadness to contain, my tears stream uncontrollably,
And that overwhelming hollow loneliness, again.
Today is dedicated to commemoration,
Thought of time that was and never will,
Your music in the speakers and your presence all around me,
You are so long gone, and yet so here.
I wish I could remember you without the crushing ache,
Think back on our good times and nothing else,
I’m tired of drowning in my own emotions,
None of it does much to bring you back.
Sharing space in me, I truly love your presence,
But I need the room for other things,
I long for a day we’d live as just good neighbors,
Meet from time to time, but otherwise, be left free.
Happy birthday, love, it’s really good to see you,
I am filled with all the pain of missing us,
Rest your soul, you are gone but not forgotten,
The day will come I’ll find my long-sought peace.